Wednesday

GM Diet

So there's jamuan raya at my office today. I ate so much.. OMG.

Then I came across this post about diet.
Credit to Mied Majid
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Apa itu GM DIET ?

✅ GM = General Motor

Diet GM pertama kali diasaskan khusus untuk para pegawai di perusahaan General Motors, Amerika Syarikat. 

Diet ni merupakan program diet 7 hari yang diuji oleh John Hopkins Research Center. Program diet ini berjaya meningkatkan tahap kesihatan dan kesegaran di pengurusan General Motors, sekali gus menaikkan daya saing produk di perusahaan General Motors.

Diet GM ni sesuai untuk mereka yang ingin menurunkan berat badan secara cepat tanpa rasa lapar. Diet ni mampu menurunkan berat badan sekitar 5-8kg dalam tempoh seminggu. Diet GM juga bersifat detoksifikasi serta mampu memperbaiki pola makan seseorang.

Diet ni dilakukan dengan menu yang telah ditetapkan. Selama diet ini berlangsung, anda harus minum air kosong minimum 8 gelas setiap hari dan tidak boleh minum minuman manis.

Diet GM boleh diulang sekali sebulan tanpa mengganggu keseimbangan gizi. 
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🍻 HARI PERTAMA 🍽
• Buah-buahan kecuali pisang.

Di hari pertama ini hanya dibolehkan makan buah-buahan. Semua buah kecuali pisang. Digalakkan makan lebih buah tembikai. Boleh makan kerap hingga kenyang.
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🍻 HARI KEDUA 🍽
• Sayur-sayuran 

Hari kedua hanya dibolehkan makan sayur-sayuran. Apa saja jenis sayur baik mentah ataupun dimasak. Boleh dimasak tumis, sup ataupun rebus. Boleh juga dibuat pecal cuma hadkan kekacang. 
Digalakkan sarapan dengan kentang rebus.
Tiada had jumlah ataupun jenis sayuran. Boleh makan kerap hingga kenyang.
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🍻 HARI KETIGA 🍽
• Sayur-sayuran kecuali kentang.
• Buah-buahan kecuali pisang.
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Di hari ketiga boleh mencampur menu sayur-sayuran dan buah-buahan. Tiada had jumlah dan boleh makan sebanyak yang diinginkan.
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🍻 HARI KEEMPAT 🍽
• Pisang
• Susu rendah lemak

Di hari keempat, perlu makan 8 biji pisang serta 3 - 4 gelas susu rendah lemak. Tidak boleh makan makanan lain pada hari ini. 
Sekiranya anda allergi terhadap susu lembu (Lactose intolerance), boleh gantikan susu rendah lemak dengan susu kacang soya.
Bagi yang tidak suka atau tidak boleh makan pisang, boleh digantikan dengan jambu batu, buah kiwi ataupun tembikai.
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🍻 HARI KELIMA 🍽
• Makanan dari sumber protein
• 6 biji tomato

Pada hari ni, anda boleh ambil 560gram sumber protein seperti daging lembu, ikan ataupun ayam tanpa kulit. Dimakan bersama dengan 6 biji tomato. Daging hamburger atau Meet ball dibolehkan. Tingkatkan pengambilan air putih untuk memudahkan sistem pencernaan. 
Bagi yang vegetarian, daging boleh digantikan dengan tempe.
Pada anda yang tidak suka tomato, boleh gantikan dengan belimbing.
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🍻 HARI KEENAM 🍽
• Makanan dari sumber protein
• Sayur-sayuran

Di hari keenam ini, anda boleh memakan kombinasi daging, ayam tanpa kulit atau ikan bersama sayur-sayuran. Tiada had jumlah. Boleh makan hingga kenyang. 
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🍻 HARI KETUJUH 🍽
• Nasi beras perang / parboiled 
• Jus buah
• Sayur-sayuran

Merupakan hari terakhir dalam GM diet. 
Hari ketujuh merupakan hari kembali pada pola makan yang biasa. Mulai dengan satu mangkuk nasi beras perang (sebesar penumbuk), dimakan bersama sayur serta jus buah.
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NOTA TAMBAHAN :

✅ GM diet ini cukup dilakukan sebulan sekali. 
✅ Jangan ambil minuman & makanan bergula sepanjang GM diet.
✅ Selesai 7 hari GM diet, teruskan dengan memilih diet suku suku separuh, atkins fasa 4, eat clean ataupun intermitten fasting untuk maintain berat badan.

💃 SELAMAT BERDIET 💃
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So what do you think?
Me, nah...
Maybe later.

Tuesday

Q & A

1: Full name
Nurulain Salim
 
2: Zodiac sign
Libra 

3: 3 Fears
a. Losing family member
b. can't think
c. ...

4: 3 things I love
a. Ice Cream
b. K-Pop
c.  Fashion

5: 4 turns on
a. Veins
b. Hands
c. Short hair (?)
d.  Bandana

6: 4 turns off
a. Smoke
b. Chewing sound
c. Clingy
d. Dependent

7: My best friend
So many

8: Sexual orientation
Straight

9: My best first date
The hot air balloon

10: How tall am I
155 cm

11: What do I miss
Eat and not getting fat

12: What time were I born
1255

13: Favourite color
Pink

14: Do I have a crush
Celeb crush? Yeh

15: Favourite quote
We don't fit in well coz we're just ourselves.

16: Favourite place
Airports and Restaurants

17: Favourite food
Ice Cream

18: Do I use sarcasm
Yes

19: What am I listening to right now
Suga

20: First thing I notice in new person
Fashion

21: Shoe size
38

22: Eye color
Black

23: Hair color
White

24: Favourite style of clothing
Whatever I grab from the wardrobe

25: Ever done a prank call?
Yes
 
26: What colour of underwear I'm wearing now?
THIS COLOR

27: Meaning behind my URL
I am a queen. Duchess was my nickname in school spelled as Dutchez.

28: Favourite movie
Merong Mahawangsa
(So random)

29: Favourite song
TEAR by BTS

30: Favourite band
BTS
SHINee
GOT7

31: How I feel right now
wrecked

32: Someone I love
My mother

33: My current relationship status
Married
...

34: My relationship with my parents
So closeeee

35: Favourite holiday
Whatever holiday that's long

36: Tattoos and piercing I have
None

37: Tattoos and piercing I want
Nothing

38: The reason I joined Tumblr
Because I'm bored with Facebook and Twitter.

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?
No idea.

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?
 YES.

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?
My husband? Yeah. 

42: When did I last hold hands?
Last week? maybe?

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?
1 hour

44: Have I shaved my legs in the past three days?
Nope

45: Where am I right now?
My Office

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?
Me, myself and I

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?
LOOOUUUDDDDD

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?
Nope

49: Am I excited for anything?
Nope

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?
Yes

51: How often do I wear a fake smile?
Once a month? I don't smile fakely lol

52: When was the last time I hugged someone?
Last week?

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?
Frozen

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?
Nope

55: What is something I disliked about today?
I had lunch alone

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
My father. Suga.

57: What do I think about most?
Food

58: What’s my strangest talent?
I don't think I have any

59: Do I have any strange phobias?
Tryptochophobia

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
Both can ah?

61: What was the last lie I told?
I am fine

62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
On the phone

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
Yes. Aliens, maybe.

64: Do I believe in magic?
Yes

65: Do I believe in luck?
Yes

66: What's the weather like right now?
Hot

67: What was the last book I've read?
The Backpacker Series- Turkey

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?
Nope

69: Do I have any nicknames?
Ratu gigi
😁

70: What was the worst injury I've ever had?
Injured too much I don't know.

71: Do I spend money or save it?
Spendddd!!!

72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?
Yep.

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me?
Yes, a unicorn pen. Wow!

74: Favourite animal?
Cat, big or small I don't care.

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?
Eating

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?
Don't know don't care.

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?
Will You Marry Me?
Ice Cream Love
Whatever by my favorite idol

78: How can you win my heart?
Give me food

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?
Rest in heaven

80: What is my favorite word?
Fine

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr
fuckyeahshinee


82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?
I am alive!

83: Do I have any relatives in jail?
No

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?
Limitless

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
Are you happy?

86: What is my current desktop picture?
 Butterfly.

87: Had sex?
 uh-oh.

88: Bought condoms?
 No

89: Gotten pregnant?
 Not yet.

90: Failed a class?
Yup.

91: Kissed a boy?
 Yea.

92: Kissed a girl?
Who?

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?
No no no no.

94: Had job?
 Yes.

95: Left the house without my wallet?
Yea.

96: Bullied someone on the internet?
No I'm a good guy. 

97: Had sex in public?
NO

98: Played on a sports team?
No

99: Smoked weed?
No

100: Did drugs?
Apart from my antidepressants, no.

101: Smoked cigarettes?
No

102: Drank alcohol?
No

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?
No

104: Been overweight?
Yes

105: Been underweight?
Nah, never.

106: Been to a wedding?
Yes, a lot.

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?
YES!

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?
YES!

109: Been outside my home country?
Yes

110: Gotten my heart broken?
Yes.

111: Been to a professional sports game?
No.

112: Broken a bone?
Yes

113: Cut myself?
Yes. 

114: Been to prom?
No. 

115: Been in airplane?
Yes. 

116: Fly by helicopter?
No. 

117: What concerts have I been to?
Idol concerts. 

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
nO

119: Learned another language?
Yes. 

120: Wore make up?
Yes. 

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?
No. 

122: Had oral sex?
No. 

123: Dyed my hair?
Yes. 

124: Voted in a presidential election?
Yes.

125: Rode in an ambulance?
Yes.

126: Had a surgery?
Yes. 

127: Met someone famous?
Yes. 

128: Stalked someone on a social network?
Yes. 

129: Peed outside?
Yes. 

130: Been fishing?
Err, I guess yes, so long time ago. 

131: Helped with charity?
Yes. 

132: Been rejected by a crush?
No. 

133: Broken a mirror?
Yes. 

134: What do I want for birthday?
A Balenciaga Motorcycle Bag

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?
2.  Kenzo Abdullah, Sakura Aminah.
Or maybe no kids at all I don't care.

136: Was I named after anyone?
Nah maybe not.

137: Do I like my handwriting?
No, it's messy. 

138: What was my favourite toy as a child?
Teddy bear. 

139: Favourite Tv Show?
Cartoons 

140: Where do I want to live when older?
I don't know

141: Play any musical instrument?
Used to. Play Tabla hahaha. But I don't major any. 

142: One of my scars, how did I get it?
Getting attacked by cat. 

143: Favourite pizza toping?
Pepperoni 

144: Am I afraid of the dark?
Maybe.
 
145: Am I afraid of heights? 
No.

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?
Yes. 

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?
Yes. 

148: What I'm really bad at
Hiding my feelings

149: What my greatest achievements are
 Go on fast track at elementary school, (5 years instead of 6)
 Present paper at National Nuclear Seminar in Indonesia.

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me
Dah lah gemuk, tak lawa.
(Fat and ugly)

151: What I'd do if I won in a lottery
 Donate all of them.
Cannot play lottery at the first place lol.

152: What do I like about myself
I am smart

153: My closest Tumblr friend
Nobody

154: Something I fantasize about
 Meet BTS

155: Any question you'd like
Do you want some cakes?

Wednesday

Torn

I had trouble sleeping last night. I had pain all over my body. And songs with suicidal lyrics keep replaying over and over again in my head. I woke up in the morning. As usual. Then to iron my husband's clothes. I wish he could take care of his own self. Seriously. In my condition now I can't afford to think of caring for someone else. I'm broken myself.
I went to work. For a video making workshop. The whole day I was feeling meh, but I got what was thought today. 
Lunch hour, I posted the gifts which I should have posted yesterday. Nevertheless I did it so yeay. 
Then the workshop continued. So yeah. I was lost again.
Before I went back I spoke to the superior beside me about the offer to transfer me to community clinic. I told her I could not. Coz I am unstable. Being suicidal I am now.
She suggested taking a break. A long one.
I told her I got lots of pending work.
She said it's gonna be back logged anyway even with me coming to work in this condition. Let others replace me at least they are not that annoyed because they'll get allowance and the job gets done.
Sigh. I'm torn. To take a break like...
Half pay leave or unpaid leave, can I really do that? Will I be better? What about the commitment I have? The bills to be paid. My husband is no one to lean to. But I really need to go away. I AM REALLY TORN.

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AND
suicidal again.

Thursday

Wednesday